I’m always trying to be productive.
But it depends. If I’m trying to be academically productive, then I’m sure as hell not doing any good a job, because I haven’t even so much as given a glance at my Filipino handouts yet. I haven’t reviewed for Math, I couldn’t care any less for Biotech, and I don’t give much of a fuck about any of my subjects now and as this phase wears on, I don’t think I’m going to.
Because I like making mixes, and I like reading. And I like listening to music and watching movies and writing on my blog(s) and organizing the layout. And a lot of other pointless shit. So if you ask me if I’m being productive, then based on this notion, I would say yes.
I want productivity to be about the things that I actually like doing. Because how could you be productive if right off the bat, you don’t even see any point in what you’re doing? Everything you’d produce wouldn’t make a difference. You don’t even like it. No matter how many good papers I could write or quizzes I could ace—then what? I’m not even sure if it would even count as productive anymore, since you never were by being there in the first place.
I’m just really fucking tired of being a goddamn student. (Right now.)
